Gaia:
Hello, and welcome to another fantastic episode of Tickle.Life podcast. I'm your host guy Morissette. And today we're doing a special feature of confessions from your host. I got to talk about my juicy life today. All right, so, today I want to talk to you about the very first time I French kissed a boy alright, ready? All right, here we go. So, I was, How old was I, I was in grade eight, so I think I was 13 but 13 years old. And I was dating this boy, whose name was Jeff.
And I was like, so into him. And it was the day before the eighth grade graduation dance. And I was so excited because I, you know, got this really cool dress for the, for the, you know, for the, for the dance and, and, you know, I really love this dress, I, you know, had saved up all of my money to buy this dress. I had it on layaway. I was like, super, super stoked. And I really liked this boy that I was with. So, the day before the dance, he decides he's gonna break up with me. And I am devastated. I'm devastated. There's no, I don't remember what the reason was, I'm sure it was lame. You know, we're 13. Remember, I was devastated. And I was crying. And I ran into the girls bathroom. And I'm in the girls bathroom, just sobbing. My heart is broken. The world is coming to an end. I knew that I knew how I was going to go to the dance. I'm going to be without a boyfriend. You know, and I bought this really good dress and, and so I'm, I'm crying and I'm sobbing. This other boy saw me run into the bathroom. And I was, you know, worried about me. And it was another boy whose name was Jeff. And he didn't like that we weren't really friends. We didn't really spend any time together. But he was concerned about me. So about me. So he comes in. He follows me into the bathroom. And I'm crying. And I turn around. And there's this boy in the girl's bathroom. I like doing it here. And he's like, Well, I saw that you were upset. Are you okay? I was like no I'm like, you know, doing all the drama. That happens for 13 year old girls around boys. And I'm not really sure how we went from me crying and talking to all of a sudden his lips were on mine. And we were kissing.
Gaia:
I was like, wait, I didn't even really like, I don't even know how that happened. But I do remember, these are some of the sensations that I was having was that wow, his lips. I remember thinking wow, he's lips were so, so soft. And I felt all like tingling all over and it was like it was delightful. And then cuz I kissed boys before, but I had never really French kissed anybody. And so all of a sudden he puts his tongue in my mouth. And he did a really good job. Like, it wasn't like he didn't you know, jam his tongue down my throat. It was like the perfect amount of tongue. And I remember thinking Wow, sounds in my mouth. And I remember my vagina getting all tingly and juicy. I'm really liking the sensations and I just kept like I was just I remember just thinking his lips are so soft. Why are his lips so soft? I was getting my very first french kiss by this boy who I don't I didn't really hang out with. We weren't really friends. I grew up in a really small school. Everybody knew each other right? But, I was like, you know, I didn't really spend any time with this boy at all right? So, we kissed me, you know, you know, had some French kissing for I don't even know how long it was, maybe 10 minutes 15 Minutes, I don't know, seems like forever. And then we stopped kissing. And I was like, are you okay, now? I'm like, Yeah, I feel much better. Thank you. And, like, left. So I was like, all of a sudden I seem to be over that boy, it's amazing when you're 13 years.
Gaia:
Oh, one minute. And something new sheffy shows up and it's like, oh, it's all better.
I ended up going to the dance. And I went with a group of friends. And I had a really good time, I looked absolutely stunning, gorgeous, in my very, not typical prom, you know, great, a prom dress. You know, it was all like lace and black satin. And, you know, all the other girls are wearing pink and purple. It was back in the 80s, too. So you know, we had puffy sleeves, and it was all very, like sleek and sexy. Needless to say, I look, I wasn't wearing the same kind of just anybody else was, which is not surprising. I don't do things like, I never did anything like anybody else. So yeah, so that was my very first French kiss. And I never kissed that boy again. And we never talked about it. And we never dated. And nothing else ever happened out of that. That was like this one random kind moment that happened between the two of us. And it was beautiful. And I loved it. And I still remember Wow, his lips were so soft.
And in that moment, it was a blessing, because I got over the first Jeff was the other Jeff in that moment. So yeah, that was my adventure. Alright, so if you want to learn more about me, you want to spend more time with me. You know, I'll give you a little lowdown on who I am. What I do is, I'm a holistic sexual wellness specialist, BDSM wellness specialist, High Priestess of divine sexual magic and elemental magics. I do a lot of training, have lots of fantastic online courses for you to know, expand your relationships and tantra and BDSM. I mean, I have, I think I have like 12 or 13 courses that are available. And I also have my own podcast called My orgasmic life. So if you're like, Ooh, I want to hear more about what's going on in Gaia's world. You can, you know, find my podcast on tickle dot life. And you can find it on all the social media platforms and all the podcasting platforms. So, I want you to take a moment. So before I let you go, once you take a moment, and think about what was the first time you French kissed? What was that experience? Like for you? Was it pleasant? Was it? Was there drama? Was it uncomfortable? Was it? Do you remember it? You know, some of those first, you know, are always interesting when we go back from the perspective of, you know, not the perspective of where we're at at the moment, but from the perspective of where we are now. And you know, looking back on that experience, what a great life, I have nothing but gratitude for that boy, who took a moment and, you know, saw somebody in distress and came and you know, checked in on that person. And that was a really beautiful piece of that moment that I had with him. And I'm not really sure how the kissing happened. I'm not sure if he took initiative, I took initiative, I can't remember that piece of it. You know, because that was a really long time ago because I'm 45 now. But, you know, it didn't feel like he was taking advantage of me, it didn't feel like you know, he didn't like laying and waiting until I was in distress so that he could like make his move and it didn't have that feel to it. I had a genuine feeling of like, are you okay, like, I see that you're upset or is there anything I can do? And apparently putting a tongue in my mouth was to make you feel better. So yeah, that's what I want to leave you with is that, you know, those looking back on some of those first can be really interesting insight and what was that experience and how, how did that experience, you know, you know shaped who you are, because I know that that that first experience was probably the first time I can really remember where somebody who didn't know me showed that they cared. And because of my background, I have, you know, a background in lots of trauma. There was a lot of trauma from my childhood. That was a foreign experience for me, and to have somebody just, you know, care for no reason was really beautiful. And it actually opened up the possibility of me allowing other people into my life as I grew and, and allowed me to let other people help me. Let other people be kind to me. So, you know, besides just the fact that his lips are really soft, that moment really kind of shaped me and, and our first always do our first shape who we become, what kind of relationships we have. And if those first experiences were traumatic, and those first experiences were unpleasant, then it continues. You can recreate those experiences, you can reclaim those experiences and you can heal those experiences so it doesn't have to shape you forever. So if the first we're not good, that's okay. You know, we can recreate them, we can fix that. Alright, so, yeah, and thanks for listening. Thanks for you know, letting me share this little story with you. And, you know,
I'll see you in our next episode or I'll or you'll hear me, you'll hear me in our next episode. Have a great day may be filled with, you know, wonderment and juiciness. Buh bye.
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